Friday, February 02, 2007
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oh my god.
i m still NOT ALLOWED to sleep.
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that's practically because, i m still waiting for someone's call.
i called dar dar at 11.10 when she said, "i m having .....(i dunno what's that)... and i shall call you back later..."
and there i go, waiting until now.
i called her like 5 minutes ago and she rejected my call.
i guess she's just simply too busy with her work.
poor thingy.
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i studied ALITTLE and i really mean i little and i play alot.
but not alot.
mere 45 minutes?
haha..
and i earned some in-game money.
pretty happy..!
i got pangsei-ed by may in game.
she told me that she'll join me shortly.
but until i decided not to play any more, she's still not in the game.
thus, she pangsei-ed me.
alright.
i told xt that i will withdraw from the class chalet.
though i will definitely miss out funs with class, but i prefer not to be that fun with the class.
or more and more conflict will occurs.
i dun wan to be like
darkness.
only TB23 will understands.
however, i saw that conversation that ken sent me.
a conversation tat he had with xxx.
he's trying to persuade xxx to change but xxx is reluctant.
i seriously understand his position, though i really agrees that he's quite irritating.
(btw, "quite" in biz stats means "ALOT")
ok.. shh..
den, xxx said something extremely bad about adi, which is basically unforgivable.
but xxx said something that i totally and 2 hands, 2 legs up to agree.
let me quote.. "i have my own PRIDE."
yes people, i have my own pride.
why must you change just to please someone?
if that's ur loved ones, i will understand.
but if i think i m okay and i m not behaving like a alien, then why must i?
if i cannot click with you, den let it me.
i will not let down my pride and do something against my wish just to let please the people.
who are they to make me do such a sacrify?
nonono.
pls, you think too highly of yourself.
i can be alone.
it's okay.
i dont mind go to school study and eat alone in the big canteen and hang out alone in school when there's 2 hours break.
i will have my own thing to do.
i can sit alone in class.
i can dont speak in class.
but i cannot throw my pride away.
i believe, no one can do that just for a normal friend.
they just dont worth your pride.
dont exchange ur pride with their accepting you.
love yourself more then anyone loves you...
我学会想开了。
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haha.
i read something at my house downstair's bus stop which i think i extremely beautiful.
it goes...
"death is just our friend, sitting by our shoulder, reminding us that we are only here (earth) for a short visit. shouldnt us be smelling the flowers along the way?"
"when we know how to die, we will know how to live."
and many more.
it's a very long essay.
i cannot remember alot. this is the two that i strongly remembered.
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especially the first one.
hao ba.
i think i shall sleep and wait for dar dar mel's call together.
cuz i m rather tired.
oh ya, before that, i shall print pass years exam papers to do.
had a deal with serene yx and adi that we'll complete it and check answer together...!
tc..
bb...
i have decided not to un-private my blog.
