Tuesday, May 22, 2007
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DERRICK KOH LYE HUI.
i m so sad sad AND SAD by everything that is basically happening now.
i feel that i can take the stress no more and i m breaking down real soon.
when everything seems like picking up,
when we seems to see a deem light at the far far end,
derrick koh fell.
he fell and he could nv pick up again.
i could never see him again.
i could no longer hear him telling me how sad he is.
i could no longer see him chewing on ice and give a "eyeeor" look when grace shout at him.
i could never see him smile to me again.
i could not hear him call me BU BU anymore.
i could not see him drives anymore.
i could see him hugging milo tight and smell him anymore.
i could never ever celebrate our 10 year apart birthday anymore.
he could never hear me said about what's happening between me and dar dar.
he could no longer help solve the conflicts in #stjames anymore.
he could never smile and say he's finally with grace.
he could no longer see me happy again.
he could never tell me to see his face at page12 again.
he's no longer around me.
no longer around anyone.
he with to another world of his own.
another place where we all dont know whether he would be happier.
we all miss him.
and i seriously miss him terribly.
20th May 2007, 6.50am.
Derrick koh lye hui leave me.
he leaves us.
he leaves grace.
he leaves EVERYTHING undone.
he's so irresponsible.
he haven take me to a sumptous and expensive dinner.
he haven celebrate our 1 day a part birthday together.
he haven told me happily he has finally found his true love.
he haven finish his story.
he haven finish hearing my story.
he haven see me drive.
he haven return me money.
he haven finish everything.
WHY!
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but never mind.
i forgive you, provided u tell me you are happier now.
if you are, i will be too.
i regret so much not replying his message at 3 plus am...
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at least i still can chat with him for a while more.
at least there wouldnt something for me to be regret for.
why.
remember a week's ago, he's still so cheerful beside me.
standing beside me.
talking to me.
cheering me up.
telling me his stories.
ARGH.
i will no longer see him.
why is life so fragile.
i really miss him.
why must you people take him away from all of us!
why.
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i miss him.....
- i dont wanna him him with his eyes closed. -
- how i wish he could open up his eyes now. -
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Yours Truly
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great 20th birthday
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