Your Attitude is Better than 40% of the Population |
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not very good indeed.
but anyway, just love your attitude alright?
:D:D
been doing ECD tutorials just now..
but i m too tired to concentrate and fish out phrases of answers from the whole chunk of paragraphs.
so, i decided to procrastinate again.
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i m so into blogging today simply because i realise for many days, i have been concentrating alot of my school work ; mostly projects and tutorials.
but i still feel that i m floating half way in every tutorials.
i m so damn worried about my grades.
- all i wanna do is find my way back intolovestudies -
:D:D
i talked to dardar.kuek.melissa over the phone just now and my sister was like saying...
JIE, you damn fierce ley.
gosh, i bet i m really too fierce towards her.
how can i keep my hot-tempered-ness?
oh, the alternative reasoning for why i post so many entries today is that i m waiting and waiting for her to come over.
and she's like taking dinosaur YEARs to come.
i m so freaking exhausted and tmr i still have to go to ADI's kurniADI's house for project cum swimming cum SAW3 session.
oh. packed packed schedules.
but i do enjoy my time with tan.serene, kurniadi.gunawan and yixiang.yow (:
and i m shijie.khong.
HAHAHAHA.
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isit because of liking someone can make you go against all the critirials that u initially set and announced to almost the whole world?
i bet it is so freaking true.
but if you dun flirt, things wont happen this way.
aint it?
):
seriously.
i dunno what to say and i was being mentioned today by a friend that she felt that i m a changed person.
well, i didn't change much but just that i m more hostile towards her.
there are many reasonings behind all my doings.
right or wrong, i believe its not appropriate to judge now.
i have my perpective towards situations and she has hers.
when characteristic do clashes, i only can say we are not fated to be friends.
or maybe yea.
but you will feel that i m faking myself.
when one of your friend asked you.
- did you ever gossiped about me? -
the fact that you did, but you aint wanna tell her cause its so fucking hurting to tell someone whom she treated you like a bestie that you actually gossiped behind her back.
however, if i answer a straight NO, i guess i m just protecting my reputation infront of her but just feeling freaking guilty deep down inside my conscience.
aint that right?
i took rather long to reply to that particular question.
so ironly.
i replied something that some how or rather admit that i did gossip but as a matter of fact that it is NOT gossip but just complaining to someone elses what i dun like and dun feels good about her doings.
=S
i m sucha bitch.
please say yes.
but, if you dun step on my tail, i doubt i will have anything to gossip about you.
isnt it so true?
i wont denied that many people are maybe gossiping behind my back right now and i wont doubt about that.
i have bad attitude and a sucky characteristic.
it's so damn difficult for me to get along with people.
but luckily, i still have some lah.
not a handful, but a "fingerful".
(:
whatever the case is, i decided to leave the clique of my friends, (well, saving some of the really true ones with me and meet them out for starbucks occasionally), and stick on to my studies and my relationship with dar dar.
(:
i promised her that i will be devoted and be more understanding.
love my dar dar mel and 1 year 3 months 1 day anniversary!
being sweet makes our relationship a "everyday valentine's day"!
i m lovin it.
(:
enough of crappin' and i feel that i should get onto my bed and rest for awhile and wait for my dar dar to bring me my supper(:
and i oh.. growing so fat as time goes by~
i m myself, i love myself and my world only revolves ard i,me, myself,shjie.khong.
- i m no longer BUBU`s.
