Friday, June 15, 2007
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can i please fuck the world upside down!
everything is bullshits.
BULLSHITs.
at this very point of moment, whereby i m blogging with my eyes wet.. with tears dripping down my cheek every seconds.. typing all the sadness down with my wet fingers. with mucus everywhere in my nose. most importantly, the very crucial point is, i m FUCKING DISAPPOINTED and yet my girlfriend is freaking enjoying herself in ZOUK, seeing pretty ladies, drinking disgusting alcohol, freaking releasing her so-called stress and i m here, sad, emo-ing, crying, and she can jolly well DONT CARE continue enjoying herself despite me hanging up her call....
what is this shits?
that fucking girl already pissed me off tremendously yesterday night. disgusting smses.. disgusting photos. disgusting looks. and i m so not allowed to jealous despite my own girlfriend taking picture with a freaking girl wearing just a sports bra with her. i cannot be jealous. CANNOT.
i asked her yesterday night. if she will be going to zouk for the fucking butch hunt. SHE SAID NO! she will be in camp. but what happened? i just randomly received her sms telling me she's booking out now and heading straight to zouk. OH WELL~ when there's happy event, she can book out. ask her to book out and meet me, oh.... excuses excuses and excuses. what is thAT!!!!
so m i suppose to randomly SMS her and tell her, dar i m heading down to stjames now and u can enjoy ur sleep in camp. i will be fine and i wont be drinking much because i know i cannot hold the alcohol. fuck. bullshitS!
and whenever we quarrel and she's enjoying outside, she will think that i m sucha pest and she will jolly well OFF her FREAKING hp so that i cannot contact her and so that she can enjoy herself FULLY and when enjoying is over, she will come back to me, thinking that i m so easy to please and that i will freaking forgive her within 5 minutes of explaining. YEA~
she's so right..
because i m so naive, thinking that she really loves me fully and she's so willing to sacrifies everything for me. she once asked me... friends over her or her over my friends. guess what. i said friends. and yEA, despite me choosing FRIENDS, she still said that i choose you over friends. FINE. and see what's she doing now! disappointment again!
and YEA. i hanged her phone.. YOU SEEEEEEEEEEee. she didnt even call back NOR SMS BACK. m i still suppose to believe that she loves me.... M IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!! i seriously dont know.... i m already too sad, too disappointed to know and think. i m sucha loser! sucha LOSER!
i cant believe that i m in this deep shit. i told myself IGNORE her... ignore her for a few days. DONT PICK up her calls... dont reply her smses.. dont even think of her for days... if she do care and she do loves me, she will be back...... she will.... but i cant even stand for an hour not messaging or calling.... because i m so freaking scare that what if i ignore her to test her, she'll be gone? i m so scare....
DOES SHE KNOWS? NO!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
does she botherS? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!
sad sad sad sad sad.....
no smses..........
i m still waiting...~
its like.. last time, when i m out with my friends, i knew that she's pissed... i did bother to cheer her up.. knows everything's alright before i can enjoy myself. and if i knew that she's pissed, i wont be able to even enjoy myself. BUT WHAT IS SHE FREAKING DOING NOW.................. enjoying herself DESPITE HER knowing that i m right here CRYING like an ass...
that day i went stjames. i knew that she goes to camp before i promise wenwen that i will be going. HOWEVER, last minute, she told me that she is booking out. and she demand me that i can stay at stjames until 1 am and i gotta meet her and go home. i persuaded.. and she agrees to put it at 3.30am. FINE. at least i meet her right...! at least i didnt say.. oh i m meeting my friends.. so i gotta meet them until all go home! i still met her at 3.30am!
BUT what is she doing now? i told her to leave at 3am to come and meet me... WHAT SHE SAYSSSSSSSSS! nooo.. the event ending at 4 plus.. after that i m going to camp back with camp mates... WHAT, cannot even meet me isit.. MELISSA KUEK! do you know what is today's date? DO YOU KNOW that it's 14th JUNE! do you know that its our anniversary? you dont bother anymore. DONT YOU!!!!!!
i will sponsor you the cab fare... THRU AND FRO!!! from zouk to my house, i'll pay! from my house to ur camp, I WILL PAY. COME FIND ME.. WILL YOU!!!!! so if u cant, dont demand me to do that! will you?
nothing can describe how i feel now. its all shits inside me. windows opened wide. i just feel like jumping down and everything's alright! but i just dont have the courage to do it. i really hoped i do have.
or someone.. please bang me with ur car. i will thank you and not blame u. thanks a million.
p/s: i dont know to hate or love you now. i m confused.
Yours Truly
She's a fatass bitch. She loves gossips and smoking. Adores bad badtz maru, and loves lychee. Having regular meals and sleeping is not her hobby but merely for survival sake. She thinks that the evolution of mankind is the greatest mistake that mother nature has ever created. She's easily provoked, thus don't be her friend if you think she doesn't fit to be. Afterall, she can't really be bothered by it as well.
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`car of my own
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`visit to taiwan/bangkok/
hongkong
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great 20th birthday
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Polaroid camera
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New curtains
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Converse sneakers
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