Friday, June 15, 2007
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i have mere 10 minutes for me to post only. cuz i m heading to my grandma house very soon!
hais. nothing more, but just grudges and grumblings.
nothing can be more heart wrenching den hearing from the person whom you knew that you loved most admitting that she's lying to you. she lied.
she sweared, she promised that she wont lie.
i broked down. i cried terribly.
i cannot accept the facts that she lied. just because she wanted to go to the butch hunts.
gosh. i m sucha stupid girl. right.
knewing that she lied, but yet i cant do anything but to accept the facts that because i love her so deeply, i got to forgive her despite her lies. i had to treat it as nothing has happened at all and hug her. hold me tears and say that its okay for her to lie.. ALL beacause i still want her to be by my side. what more can i do? i really dont know.
i punched my fists 2 HARD times against the wall. and i got my hand brusied. i know its so stupid to hurt myself. but when i hurt myself, i get the attention i want from her. after i punch my fist, she finally cares for me. finally hugged me. dar, isit i must hurt myself before i can get the attention from you? is this what a gf must do?
disappointments.
ytd, i really feel like chasing her out of my house and tell her everything between us is over. but i jolly well know myself that i still need her. i dont want to let her go. i still love her as much as the first day i've been together with her. never change at all.
but she broke my trust. will i still be able to trust her? will i still be able to take her words and believe her that she will be in camp everytime she tells me she is? i really hoped i can and i hoped that she will keep her promise and wont lie to me anymore.
dardar, please do not lie to me again. i dont want to get hurt again. i promise to let you go clubbing promise to let you put tattoo. but please, know ur limits alright? dont let me break down again. i know very well of myself that if i cant take it, i will go.
dardar, i really love you. please dont hurt me. i hope you keep ur promise.
will you?
Yours Truly
She's a fatass bitch. She loves gossips and smoking. Adores bad badtz maru, and loves lychee. Having regular meals and sleeping is not her hobby but merely for survival sake. She thinks that the evolution of mankind is the greatest mistake that mother nature has ever created. She's easily provoked, thus don't be her friend if you think she doesn't fit to be. Afterall, she can't really be bothered by it as well.
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`car of my own
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hongkong
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great 20th birthday
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Polaroid camera
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New curtains
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Chained Bucket Bag
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