first, i must apologise for the apparent fact that my blog is being emotionally-filled recently. i've been thinking a lot recently. maybe its due to the reason that i am kind of free when the sky turns dark. i still, as usual, refuse to do my unfinished work and waste my time staring onto the ceiling, thinking of practically NOTHING. goD!

anyway, i read this 8 days magzine today. i happened to come across this horoscope section and i read my horoscope; cancer. it mentioned that i am not being myself and putting a mask in front of my real face. true enough, i feel that i am being nice in disguise. i dont understand why m i treating people i do not like nice, and give extra tolerance to people who doesnt deserve it at all.

ok, i feel that i am quite pathetic. WHY? let me tell you, i realise, i have NO FRIENDS AT ALL. aint it pathetic enough? i totally have no friends to go out with. only with dardar is out, den i have to go out with FRIENDS. when she's confined in camp, i find NO ONE to go out with. no even one person to talk to.

these few days, when she's in camp, i desperately looking for friends to go out with, be it watching a simple movie, go for a window shopping, even merely sitting down at a cafe to talk my hearts out. and apparently, i get no one. m i just so not sociable or m i just simply 没有人缘？there's lots of question marks to my question.

alright, on wednesday, i revealed to tansiewhong the deepest secret i had within me when practically no one except my sister knows about it. i am not sure if i did the correct thing, because now i feared of being betrayed. not that i dun trust tansiewhong (if not, i wouldnt even consider telling her right), its merely me, not having the secruity that i have in the past.

i then realise i am no longer a small girl, no longer a innocent small girl that i used to be. i used to tell the whole world my "secret", which literally becomes a worldwide known secret, which is then NOT a secret anymore. in the past, i can easily tell anyone how i feel, like who i like, who i dislike, and bitch like nobody's business. now i come to realise, i cant any more. there's this protective layer in front of me that is defending me against almost EVERYONE.

i felt that my emotions are being depressed deep down in my heart. so deep that i dont even know what to do. then when i cannot take it anymore, i will just flare at dardar. she's pathetic too, having me as a girlfriend, i understand. but i am sorry.

do you know the feeling of not having a single friend that i seriously and sincerely considering him/her being my friend now?

i feel that i m useless in some sense. emoness is taking all over me. they spread like how cancerous cells spread. ):

alright, let's now put all emotion aside..................

today's presentation was.... a flop. WHY? our kungfu panda video failed on us at the point of presentation. omg. that's the illustration we have for 3 out of 5 of our points. which means, half of our presentation is GONE. what's lucky is that i've found another illustration for my attitude point, serene has hers and yong cheng has his.

while i was explaining my attitude point, i was so loud, and i never murmur. i speak LOUD and CLEAR, like what a good presenter would do. i am so proud of myself. i think siewhong got shocked. i wonder if Mr Edmund Ang did? hahaha. i am confident with my illustration and i hope that it can pull up our grade despite us not having the video.

(:(:

IBS networking tmr, and hopefully it can be done perfectly. xt,siewhong, and me have done the food, and hope that class will like what we've prepared. anyway, i got a little stomach upset just now and i was seriously wondering if i was caused by the food we prepared? hopefully not.

**(baobei woke up and scratch herself so hard and now she walks from her bed to under my bed. aint she cute?????)**

hai. Sales management presentation on monday, and i m ZZZZZZZZZZ, not prepared. WHATEVER.

She's a fatass bitch. She loves gossips and smoking. Adores bad badtz maru, and loves lychee. Having regular meals and sleeping is not her hobby but merely for survival sake. She thinks that the evolution of mankind is the greatest mistake that mother nature has ever created. She's easily provoked, thus don't be her friend if you think she doesn't fit to be. Afterall, she can't really be bothered by it as well.




♥ Shijie Khong.
27June, Cancerian.
Loves red.
Bad Badtz Maru's lover.
♥♥ Baobei.khong is my princess (:



`car of my own
`human sized bad badtz maru
`Bad badtz maru's Tee!
`Bad badtz maru's bedsheets
`visit to taiwan/bangkok/hongkong
`visit to redang/bintan/tioman/phuket
`great 20th birthday
`Polaroid camera
`New curtains
`more heels
`Converse sneakers
`Singapore Flyers
`Chained Bucket Bag
`A tattoo (:
`Pink polka dots hairband
`batam cable skiing
`Queen Sized Bed
`Suntanning soon :D
`NUM Havaianas flip flop
`Polaroid Films


♥ Jan01`New Year Day!
♥ Jan27`Brother Khong's Bday!
♥ Jan27`May's Birthday!
♥ Feb14`CNY Day1..
♥ Feb14`Valentine's Day
♥ Mar18`Sister Khong's Bday!
♥ Jun25`Gracey's Birthday.
♥ Jun26`Mummy's Bday!
♥ Jun27`MY 21st BIRTHDAY!
♥ Aug09`National Day!
♥ Oct12`Wenzi's Birthday.