everything is over already. even now i tell myself thousands of times that how much i wanted her back, she's not going to come back; she attached already.

i know i can blame no one for this consequences except myself. i trust me, i've never been so regret before. i regret for telling her all the negatives things over the phone and i regret being so hard hearted.

i regret not treating her better during our lovely days and i regret giving her like that to another girl. i know she's always been there for me and i thought i can win her heart back all over again, making her love me again and everything shall start anew.

but since now she's attached, i guess, even i do it million times better, she's not going to come back to me.

i tell myself i've to let go. but its always easier said than done. friends always tell me that its a matter of time. yes, who don't know that? but how am i suppose to wait till that day? its killing gradually, day by day and how i hope i can sleep now and never wake up again tomorrow.

i know its dumb to think that way and its a coward to run away from reality. but, friends, its a really hard time for me now.

i told her ytd that i want to restart all over again, and we can start from friends and i will make her love me for i will change and become a new person. however, i dont get the chance anymore. i literally lost the chance.

i lost her, and i lost every sweet memories we have had. i hate to be regret in whatever i am doing. but i just hope that i can turn back time and get her back to me.

i really miss her hugs, and miss her digging my ear. i seriously cant let go. i hope that its not true that she already got another girl so that i can win her back. i hope that i can just die the next minute.

i hope that i dont have to work tomorrow because this is seriously affecting my performance at work. i need her support and i need her to move on with me. its never possible now.

whenever i lie on my bed, how i wish she's beside me, hugging me.
whenever i look at the window, how i hope she's still there smoking with me.
whenever i look at baobei, how i wish she's still there making her sleep.
whenever i look at my phone, i wanted so much to tell her dardar, i m going to sleep already.
whenever i look at my bad badtz maru, how i wish she can draw another one for me.

she still haven complete doing my mirror for me.
and i really miss her like crazy.

everything's too late. and i hate it.

friends, i know you all are there for me. telling me dont be sad. but i actually need more than that. since time cannot be turn back, i hope it can fast forward, so that i can let go of this impossible relationship. or, wait till she ends with her current gf, so i can win her back again!

i really hope to win her back.

can anyone tell me its a dream?
or can anyone tell me she's actually not attached so i can still have another chance?

PLEASE?

She's a fatass bitch. She loves gossips and smoking. Adores bad badtz maru, and loves lychee. Having regular meals and sleeping is not her hobby but merely for survival sake. She thinks that the evolution of mankind is the greatest mistake that mother nature has ever created. She's easily provoked, thus don't be her friend if you think she doesn't fit to be. Afterall, she can't really be bothered by it as well.




♥ Shijie Khong.
27June, Cancerian.
Loves red.
Bad Badtz Maru's lover.
♥♥ Baobei.khong is my princess (:



`car of my own
`human sized bad badtz maru
`Bad badtz maru's Tee!
`Bad badtz maru's bedsheets
`visit to taiwan/bangkok/hongkong
`visit to redang/bintan/tioman/phuket
`great 20th birthday
`Polaroid camera
`New curtains
`more heels
`Converse sneakers
`Singapore Flyers
`Chained Bucket Bag
`A tattoo (:
`Pink polka dots hairband
`batam cable skiing
`Queen Sized Bed
`Suntanning soon :D
`NUM Havaianas flip flop
`Polaroid Films


♥ Jan01`New Year Day!
♥ Jan27`Brother Khong's Bday!
♥ Jan27`May's Birthday!
♥ Feb14`CNY Day1..
♥ Feb14`Valentine's Day
♥ Mar18`Sister Khong's Bday!
♥ Jun25`Gracey's Birthday.
♥ Jun26`Mummy's Bday!
♥ Jun27`MY 21st BIRTHDAY!
♥ Aug09`National Day!
♥ Oct12`Wenzi's Birthday.