after a month of torturing, finally something sweet came to me.

i hope that she'd be serious this time round and no more empty promises to me.

though i hope that she can be my dardar all over again, but i just simply cant bring myself to trust her again. not able to trust that she will 100% be back with me. the level of trust is not even 50% if you believe me.

this may seems damn demoralizing and then you will start asking me,"so what's the point of going back to her when you know you cant trust her? the most important thing in a relationship is mutual trust. without it, the relationship cant go far."

melissa and me have come this far. though we sort of ended our 30months relationship back in 2008 august, but till now, we both now we still have each other inside us. now, its 34 months soon already.

she moved on with her current girlfriend and i moved on with my current crushed. i dont trust her that she really meant it when she said that she will leave her girlfriend and come back to me and she dont trust me that i can let the crush go.

no matter how hard i tried to instill the mentality that CRUSH is only a CRUSH. to that crush, its merely likings and liking wont stay long. i pick it up within 1 week and i can let it go within 1 week. but she doesnt seems to believe me. it is really a hinderance to a new beginning of our relationship.

but what's the biggest hinderance now is not my crush. its her current girlfriend. she's a nice girl i know. i know she's patient with melissa, she takes good care of melissa and her temper is definitely better then me. let's not even go into the superficial part. its rather sensitive.

but i hope she do understand that until date, melissa and me is soon to be 34 months and her? 3 months? the memories, the sweet little things and the feeling that melissa and me have together, i guess, she can never replace (for now luh).

melissa said that she'll prove to me that she wants me back.......

but who knows? because till now, i cant feel a single bit.

i read someone's blog. she kneel down to ask her exgf to be her gf again... and WOW, sweet. i never fail to get melted by her doings for her girlfriend despite her girlfriend's a flirt. now that her gf choose to go back to her, i do hope that things will really go well between them...

i love to have a new beginning with melissa, with all the redang/thailand/taiwan trip welly planned.. so be it the two of us, or with jacqueline and dan or some other couples within your group, we'll travel there and have a really good rest. i miss those time...

sometimes, i really dont know how to approach melissa... how to tell her how badly i want her to come back to me... how to describe to her how hurt i am when she leaves me for peggy. when she talked to me like she's a stranger...

i once said to everyone, I WILL NEVER WANT HER BACK. even if she was to say she wants me back...

but apparently, 1 month after all her harsh doings, i realise harsh and disappointing things she did have faded... to a point whereby, i can forgive her and accept her back wholeheartedly...

DARDAR: can u please understand that a crush can really never be able to replace you?

i dunno if melissa will be able to read this page or not. but i really do hope that i wont have to write such things in my blog again. i hope that the future post will all be the happy moments that we share together. (:

i wish.....

She's a fatass bitch. She loves gossips and smoking. Adores bad badtz maru, and loves lychee. Having regular meals and sleeping is not her hobby but merely for survival sake. She thinks that the evolution of mankind is the greatest mistake that mother nature has ever created. She's easily provoked, thus don't be her friend if you think she doesn't fit to be. Afterall, she can't really be bothered by it as well.




♥ Shijie Khong.
27June, Cancerian.
Loves red.
Bad Badtz Maru's lover.
♥♥ Baobei.khong is my princess (:



`car of my own
`human sized bad badtz maru
`Bad badtz maru's Tee!
`Bad badtz maru's bedsheets
`visit to taiwan/bangkok/hongkong
`visit to redang/bintan/tioman/phuket
`great 20th birthday
`Polaroid camera
`New curtains
`more heels
`Converse sneakers
`Singapore Flyers
`Chained Bucket Bag
`A tattoo (:
`Pink polka dots hairband
`batam cable skiing
`Queen Sized Bed
`Suntanning soon :D
`NUM Havaianas flip flop
`Polaroid Films


♥ Jan01`New Year Day!
♥ Jan27`Brother Khong's Bday!
♥ Jan27`May's Birthday!
♥ Feb14`CNY Day1..
♥ Feb14`Valentine's Day
♥ Mar18`Sister Khong's Bday!
♥ Jun25`Gracey's Birthday.
♥ Jun26`Mummy's Bday!
♥ Jun27`MY 21st BIRTHDAY!
♥ Aug09`National Day!
♥ Oct12`Wenzi's Birthday.