just one phrase is enough to keep me awake the whole night.

I guess, i'm really too weak. Way out of my expectations. I hate the guessing-what-you-thinking game but i think, its just not under my control.

I can't help but to think if she still does cares, if she will still eventually return to my side. Just as i've always said, i dun mind starting everything from scratch again. Even though i know its not fair to myself.

Ain't that what loving someone should do? Accepting her everything. Including all her negative points. Stepping into misery once again.

I'd want to move on. I'd wants someone new. I want a new relationship, a new girlfriend. But not all my wants are granted. I've tried. I've tried letting go, i've tried accepting someone new. I've tried liking someone else.

But just hearing her name is enough to tarnish all the efforts that i've put in to forget her for the past 4 months or so.

I've tried, my friends. I've failed every single one. I'm here to apologise, to all who have helped me to move on. Who encouraged me. Who are there for me when i needed them so.

I'm lost, once again.

She's a fatass bitch. She loves gossips and smoking. Adores bad badtz maru, and loves lychee. Having regular meals and sleeping is not her hobby but merely for survival sake. She thinks that the evolution of mankind is the greatest mistake that mother nature has ever created. She's easily provoked, thus don't be her friend if you think she doesn't fit to be. Afterall, she can't really be bothered by it as well.




♥ Shijie Khong.
27June, Cancerian.
Loves red.
Bad Badtz Maru's lover.
♥♥ Baobei.khong is my princess (:



`car of my own
`human sized bad badtz maru
`Bad badtz maru's Tee!
`Bad badtz maru's bedsheets
`visit to taiwan/bangkok/hongkong
`visit to redang/bintan/tioman/phuket
`great 20th birthday
`Polaroid camera
`New curtains
`more heels
`Converse sneakers
`Singapore Flyers
`Chained Bucket Bag
`A tattoo (:
`Pink polka dots hairband
`batam cable skiing
`Queen Sized Bed
`Suntanning soon :D
`NUM Havaianas flip flop
`Polaroid Films


♥ Jan01`New Year Day!
♥ Jan27`Brother Khong's Bday!
♥ Jan27`May's Birthday!
♥ Feb14`CNY Day1..
♥ Feb14`Valentine's Day
♥ Mar18`Sister Khong's Bday!
♥ Jun25`Gracey's Birthday.
♥ Jun26`Mummy's Bday!
♥ Jun27`MY 21st BIRTHDAY!
♥ Aug09`National Day!
♥ Oct12`Wenzi's Birthday.