JUST PLEASE LET ME RANT! i really want to say everything out (to her)..........

I LOVE YOU!!!!
but i really cannot even tell you so! just because i have no trust in you.
whenever you promised me like how you do, my heart will naturally melt and say yes.
i cannot bring myself to treat you very harshly even though i know i should.
however, at the end of the conversation, i'd still wish to tell you, please come back.

whenever i want to tell you i love you and i want you to come back so badly and says that please break with peggy cuz i want to have you from this minute, i will definitely be held back!
because i knew that you'll change your mind again! i ought to be mentally prepared that you will not want me because this is dunno for fucking sake how many times you have been doing it.
It much that it has been a habit!

even though you promise me, you swear, you kiss me, you hold my hand, you hug me, you look into my eyes and tell me how much you want to come back, at the end of the day, the person you are with is still that bitch! i dunno how many times i wanna try it.

I for god sake dunno how many times you've been doing it.

but why am i still having the little hope in my heart that you'll do it?

people around you dont trust your words any more... why m i still trusting it? still putting hope in it? HOW many times have i tell myself that even you knee down in front of me, i still shouldnt trust you because you seriously dont worth it any more? i hate myself.

i hate myself for being so weak. i hate it whenever you sweet talk with me. i should stop bringing my mobile phone out until you tell me you break with that bitch. till then, please can you stop contacting me so that even if you wanna change your mind, i wouldnt be so hurt by it?

i really hate myself for giving my friend promises that i want you back but yet i cant do it!

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i got so much so much to say... i wanna scream in front of everyone.....

i cannot hold it any more........

ITS REALLY TO FUCKING STRESS FOR ME TO LIVE IN YOU, BUT NOT IN YOUR HEART!!!!!!

CCCCCCBBBBBBBBBB!!!!

She's a fatass bitch. She loves gossips and smoking. Adores bad badtz maru, and loves lychee. Having regular meals and sleeping is not her hobby but merely for survival sake. She thinks that the evolution of mankind is the greatest mistake that mother nature has ever created. She's easily provoked, thus don't be her friend if you think she doesn't fit to be. Afterall, she can't really be bothered by it as well.




♥ Shijie Khong.
27June, Cancerian.
Loves red.
Bad Badtz Maru's lover.
♥♥ Baobei.khong is my princess (:



`car of my own
`human sized bad badtz maru
`Bad badtz maru's Tee!
`Bad badtz maru's bedsheets
`visit to taiwan/bangkok/hongkong
`visit to redang/bintan/tioman/phuket
`great 20th birthday
`Polaroid camera
`New curtains
`more heels
`Converse sneakers
`Singapore Flyers
`Chained Bucket Bag
`A tattoo (:
`Pink polka dots hairband
`batam cable skiing
`Queen Sized Bed
`Suntanning soon :D
`NUM Havaianas flip flop
`Polaroid Films


♥ Jan01`New Year Day!
♥ Jan27`Brother Khong's Bday!
♥ Jan27`May's Birthday!
♥ Feb14`CNY Day1..
♥ Feb14`Valentine's Day
♥ Mar18`Sister Khong's Bday!
♥ Jun25`Gracey's Birthday.
♥ Jun26`Mummy's Bday!
♥ Jun27`MY 21st BIRTHDAY!
♥ Aug09`National Day!
♥ Oct12`Wenzi's Birthday.