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2010-02-10T20:23:00.002+08:00

shifted. (:

http://bomchacha.wordpress.com/

2010-02-08T16:13:00.002+08:00

some people just disgust the shit out of me.

sympathy is being misused. definitely.

when i realised that its totally pointless being so nice, then i will never be nice any more.

hate me or love me, its just being marked by a very thin line.

whatever the case will be, i cannot be bothered.

2010-02-06T16:15:00.003+08:00

Baobei.khong's birthday party was a blast.... everyone was there...

7 doggies, 12 humans.......

the cafe was pretty small but good enough to accommodate everyone of us.

baobei is such a lovely dog. she will never fail to make me laugh at her silly actions.

i told her i am bringing her to grandma house... and i wore the bandana that dan gave as her birthday gift...

then baobei lost her patience and start wandering around the whole house...

i can never ever resist such a cutie pie... (:

2010-02-03T19:26:00.002+08:00

i have been trying very hard to log in to ibanking for the past 30 minutes.

its so fed up when things just doesn't go your way!!!

i know i am pmsing.

wandering around bugis and got pissed off by people walking very slowly in front of me.

What the fark is getting into me!

relax shijie, relax......

2010-01-28T11:35:00.001+08:00

If that's what friends are for, THANKYOUVERYMUCH.

i am utterly disappointed.

2010-01-25T00:46:00.002+08:00

SLIM DOWN SLIM DOWN SLIM DOWN!

EAT LESSER EAT LESSER EAT LESSER!

EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE!

COLLAR BONES COLLAR BONES COLLAR BONES!

SLEEVELESS SLEEVELESS SLEEVELESS!

CONFIDENCE CONFIDENCE CONFIDENCE!

AND WHY SINGAPORE DOES NOT HAVE A PROPER SHOPPING CENTRE (OTHER THAN THE INDIAN ONE) THAT IS 24HOURS? =X

2010-01-21T20:28:00.003+08:00

Busy...

I've been super busy recently...

Cut the story short.........................

Even if now i have the ability to turn back time, I still think that the same decision will be made.

I know i never regret the breakup, but its just the sweet memories lingering within me.

I understand what my tears are shed for and soon, it will be over (:

2010-01-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

I am all lost in words. ):

2010-01-11T17:37:00.002+08:00

no point arguing nor saying too much...
at the end of the day, if i know i do, misunderstanding will be created.

it we can't let go of it, there will be no future.

had a series of good dreams...
when phone calls just keep coming in to destroy them. but the good thing about it is, whenever i fall asleep again, its another sweet dream... (:

i even dream that i am getting married! its such a pity that i don't even know who i'm married to!

I JUST CAN'T SEE MY LAOGONG'S FACE!!! wahahahahahahahaha....

2010-01-10T04:49:00.001+08:00

I just wanted a simple life.

A reliable boyfriend and a few good friends.

And i am contented.

I miss those simple yet fruitful days.

):

2010-01-08T17:19:00.002+08:00

Random thoughts running through my mind...

I always love sleeping when i am feeling extremely down because whenever i wake up in the morning, i feel damn fresh. as if all my sorrows are gone.

i've been trying to calm myself down... Trying my best to let history BE history, stop getting too emotional. letting bygones be bygones and carry on with my life. (:

its gonna work and it has to be that way.

2009-12-31T04:20:00.002+08:00

Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
(Or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been
(Or might have been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you, yeah

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
(Wondering)
How it should be now or neither been
(Or might have been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

I never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

A part of me will always be with you...

I thought i've moved on... but i was very wrong. you came into the picture, providing me practically everything that i was looking for in a relationship. because of everything you gave me, you made me set my expectation so high up... that now i realize, probably no one can ever reach my expectations.

why must you set the bench mark so high... why i just can't seems to find another person that i can love like the way i love you, treat me like the way you've treated me. treated me like a precious pearl, and that he will be willing to give up the whole world just to protect me... kiss me in my nose whenever we bid goodbye...

i seem to lost touch with the word feeling, with relationship. i gave up my youth being with a girl... with no regrets... for my future, i gave up a girl i loved so badly... as much as i want to be with you forever, i got to put my parents feelings into consideration.

whatever said was said, whatever done was done. everything gone. i know i let you go, with no regrets as well. (:

move on shijie... move on...

2009-12-28T05:58:00.003+08:00

It always heart wrenching to see friends, especially close friends, around you feeling upset. I know its inevitable, but i just cant help but to feel sad. Then, i feel guilty for not being able to do anything to make them feel any better. All i can do is to assure them that i will always be there for them. Cause in any time if i am in their situation, i do hope they will do the same.

Never underestimate the power of friendship (:

Guy is something that can never be trusted. No matter how much i tell myself that i should or i can do it, some issues will definitely cock up. At the end of the day, everything goes back to a square one.

Sweet talk is crap.
Assurance is crap.
Confused is crap.
Uncertainty is crap.

They are just no any better than crap. Seriously. If not for the sake of reproduction and LEGAL marriage, i swear i'll never be together with a MAN. That's the reason why i am working this hard. For my own future, thus never will i need to rely on man. I am not giving them any reasons for them to be a step above me. I will not boost their egos.

Things are easier said than done because they are never in our shoes. I've been in that horrible shoes. I know how it felt to be cheated, how it felt to give in your everything yet yearning nothing in return. How it felt to accept promises even if you know they are merely empty promises. Because you always thought love can do wonders. You always believe that as long as you give in your everything, you will gain a happy ever after ending.

BULLSHIT.

i never trusted happy ever after ending. i never liked bed time stories. you can only fantasize but not hoping that it will come true. pardon me for being practical but nonetheless, that's the fatal fact that you ought to accept. relationship; breakups, marriage; divorce. How many people can sustain theirs till they grow old and die together? and how many third-party relationships?

after seeing so many failed relationships, i really don't dare to step into another one. no doubt being single tends to feel lonely but that's about it.

my world revolves only around myself.

cheers to that. (:

2009-12-26T05:25:00.002+08:00

Christmas BASH!

Such a success... Worry not GRACEY! (:

my first and prolly last santarina dress... it paiseh the shit out of me!

nonetheless, i enjoyed myself to the fullest.

no more emo shit. no more.

2009-12-17T09:55:00.002+08:00

童话故事都是假的。

男人都是假的。

这一切的一切，让我很难再喜欢上男人。

只害怕再受伤害，在受委屈，在被欺骗。

可能我没我想象中勇敢，也没想象中那么潇洒。

可能我就是那么的玩不起。

我太看好我自己，也有一点太自以为是了。。。

我需要脱离这现实的社会一下子。

让我好好的反省反省一下。

就那么一下下就好了。

2009-12-14T18:40:00.000+08:00

this is friendship (:

2009-12-08T23:50:00.002+08:00

When my tear gland gets full, its time to release some of my tears.
Then I am back to my happy-go-lucky self.

Just like those rainbows after the rain. (:

2009-12-05T23:40:00.001+08:00

There are no two person living in my heart concurrently.

You are the only reason why my heart is occupied.

(:

2009-12-03T02:45:00.003+08:00

It has been awhile since i last blogged a decent entry.

It has been awhile since i last clubbed.

(:

Its not about the number of times you go clubbing, but rather, it is the feeling within you that counts.
The feeling of freedom and being carefree.
We ought to be self-centered and bother less about what other people think and look at you.
Gossips, like many others have said, is inevitable.
So why bother.

Do what you feel like doing, ignoring other people. That's life.
And i am so gonna enjoy MY life to the fullest.
(:

2009-11-29T15:59:00.002+08:00

无数个夜晚
任性的被你宠坏
我曾想就这样耍赖
如今默默呼吸孤单

失去了什么
还剩下什么
不再等待
面对你慷慨无截止的爱
我该不该
勇敢的离开

对自己坦白
爱狠狠的还在
找朋友陪伴都抵不过你一半
泪在眼里打转爱已变成黑白
找不到答案也不想谎言主宰

对彼此坦白我们真的失败
背叛不是因为就算承诺不再
新欢成了旧爱
爱的没了姿态我会释怀
让世界把一切都冲淡

失去了什么
还剩下什么
不再等待
面对你慷慨
无截止的爱
我该不该
勇敢的离开

对自己坦白爱狠狠的还在
找朋友陪伴都抵不过你一半
泪在眼里打转
爱已变成黑白
找不到答案也不想谎言主宰

对彼此坦白我们真的失败
背叛不是因为就算承诺不再
新欢成了旧爱
爱的没了姿态
我会释怀
让世界把一切都冲淡

就让它冲淡

2009-11-27T15:23:00.002+08:00

i cannot imagine...

i actually miss those good old days...

the least expected thing is, those good old memories made me shed my tears for once.

i know i miss you.
but i know my direction and my stand.

(:

2009-11-24T19:32:00.001+08:00

Shall have my dinner, watch television, do my mask and sleep.

看开一点，我会活得更开心。。。

2009-11-23T14:31:00.002+08:00

Out of so many rainy days, we managed to choose a sunny day to head to sentosa.
Most of us get ourselves sun burnt, i still feels great about it. (:

Added some new songs to my mixpod and i am hooked to all the songs in it.
cheers to that!

I wanted to study, because i know i need to...
but the weather is simply too ideal for me to lie on my comfy bed for a good afternoon nap.
Its tempting but i really know i need to study.
I am lagging behind my peers and that's threatening.

):

2009-11-22T00:39:00.001+08:00

talk to my hand.

2009-11-17T00:59:00.004+08:00

Went for a short JB TRIP yesterday night (:

(:

P/S: Some people out that are just plain childish. They stopped growing don't know since when. I really can't be bothered to talk to someone who is rude while they are in favour of me.

F*** off.

2009-11-13T17:34:00.001+08:00

Goodbye.

Hi to myself again.

Its only me, myself and I again.

Its gonna stay that way for a long while (:

2009-10-23T05:01:00.002+08:00

In a new relationship, everything feels extremely perfect.

A near perfect boyfriend (at least to me), who gives in to my when i throw my bossy temper around.

Honeymoon period, missing him like damn badly.
Though he's super duper under weight, but i still feel comfortable hugging him tightly.

I have practically no time for anything else.

Boyfriend,
School,
BFFs.

I do not have extra time to care about what other people thinks and feels.

Go ahead and whine, throw your temper and tarnish my reputation for all i care.

xoxo.

2009-10-16T16:31:00.002+08:00

爱情有那么多的阶段。。。

暧昧肯定是最幸福的。

最少，我自己是这么认为。

被一双很大却又温柔的手抱着，那感觉是我要忘，都忘不了的。

我不知道为设么会有这样的感觉。

但是，暧昧就足够了吗？

2009-10-05T06:31:00.002+08:00

i want to..........

Pack and clean my room,
Go for facial appoint to remove my gigantic pimple,
Do some exercise,
Revise some work,
Eat healthily

TOMORROW.

Relationships are just another scary thing, isnt it?
Not a single person knows how to handle it properly.
Some times, i want to be truthful. But there's just some part of me likes the attention that is showering at me.
I know I'm selfish. Everyone is.
But neither of you is obligated by me.

Let's us enjoy the companion and carry one with our lives. (:

Just be contented with what you have.

Xoxo.

2009-10-03T05:32:00.001+08:00

i think the answer to my question is quite obvious now.

i feel much more relaxed. (:

for now, i will only focus on upgrading myself.

nights.

2009-09-22T05:02:00.000+08:00

i am farking envy those who slim down super alot ever since the last time i saw them...

i should see their pictures every single day, to remind myself that i can do it... (:

SHIJIE,

YOU CAN FARKING DO IT!

2009-09-21T16:56:00.005+08:00

Bid goodbye to my best poly friend, best poly project group member, Kurniadi!

We'll miss you... Study hard while you are in Manchester...
Visit us if you happen to come to Singapore! (:

(:

2009-09-21T03:44:00.002+08:00

Days have been so far so good.
Some people just never fail to surprise me.

There are thoughts running through my mind.
I kept silence some times to sort out of thoughts.
Is it me that is thinking way too much or is it that the feelings is just not right?

I, myself is so fickle minded that I'm kinda scare of myself too.
My feelings can simply change like every seconds.

Some parts of me wants to carry on and another part of me is holding me back.

I know i'm so trying to be a emo-fuck right now, but the fact that i'm not unhappy.
I'm merely confused, merely worried that i take a wrong step again.

I'm not a person that loves making rush decision then goes around regretting. So i try to think to the extremes, so that at the end of the day, the decision that i made will be the near perfect ones. (:

My sleeping time is screwed up. I promise to wake up slightly earlier tomorrow, coming home earlier tomorrow (if i were to go out), to complete things that have been hanging around for quite some time.

Transfer pictures that i've taken till now,
uploading them to facebook for friends,
uploading them to blog for memories purpose,
making notes for my modules,
packing my room,
accompany baobei.

Baobei has been in a bad mood ever since she cut her hair botak.
kind of heart pain since she doesnt wants to play with me despite me irritating her.

and now that i come home late, she doesnt even welcome me. ):
she always do no matter how late i'm home.

i miss her so badly now.............

AND, jonathan's dogs are just SO ADORABLE!

2009-09-15T01:12:00.002+08:00

My ideal proposal......

My dream guy, playing Canon In D with a grand piano...
Wearing smartly...
Giving me those irresistible and charming smile...
Telling me how much he wants to be with me for the rest of his life...
Kneeling down, passing me our wedding ring...
and asked..

WILL YOU MARRY ME?

and i will then whisper, "Yes, i definitely do..."

(:

2009-09-13T14:59:00.001+08:00

Big hands do mean something (:

and my blog looks pathetic with these short posts...

WAHAHAHAHA..

2009-09-06T04:57:00.000+08:00

i have a ultimate goal in my mind, for myself.

(:

2009-09-01T19:54:00.001+08:00

I've never won any lucky draw games before...

and today, my group was "lucky draw-ed" to be the first in presenting our presentation next week out of so many groups.

I am SO DAMN LUCKY ):

2009-08-30T23:30:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. (Super TRUE!)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? (doesn't this contradicts to the above?)

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (Super true again~~)

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. (TRUE!!!)

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. (TRUEE!!!!)

2009-08-28T15:53:00.009+08:00

Some real overdued photos (:

15Aug, KFC and Pizza Hut delivery at wowo house!
that "bitchface" that tagged me some time back makeup and desperately waiting for me to take picture of her!!!

We then played "Cluedo" which sucks. i guess we got the rules totally wrong! But in any case, wenzi's hebear won. (: congrats.

WOWO's pet dog, ACE! pretty much Pepper lookalike! i keep calling him PEPPER~~

And after a sumptuous dinner, here comes our exercise! Wii! (:

NEXT UP!
10Aug, prawning at bishan.

Danteo jio-ed prawning... and out of the blue, brotherkhong asked me to bring him for a prawning session.

Since so many people have craving for prawning that particular night, all of us headed down to bishan... including wenzi and her family!

our catch for that night! though my face look quite "farked up" in this picture, but its still my favourite of them all! i don't know why! so, MUST UPLOAD!!!!

THE END! (:

i know there are still photos that are taken but yet to be uploaded....
its all in my sister camera...
these photos are taken with dardar's camera...

so till i have the hold of my sister's camera, these photos will keep you entertained for the time being. (:

2009-08-19T18:11:00.001+08:00

i am trying out the myth that says "Smoking ease menstrual cramps..."

i will see how it goes..............

2009-08-17T04:25:00.001+08:00

suddenly i always have a problem finding a parking lot at my house.
i got to park all the way to other blocks.
and today, i parked beside SPC.

i really cannot imagine another year down the road...
i think i will have to park at disabled parking lot.

worse come to worse, i shall just park at the road side.

):

2009-08-13T00:36:00.002+08:00

Friends.

I will listen to you when you got unsolved problems,
when you are stressed,
when you are uncertain,
when you really need a listening ear,
when you need someone to be there for you,
when you want some companion,
when you want to vent your anger.

But then, not when you tell me things that doesn't upset you, and its totally none of my business, i get pretty irritated especially when i need all the time to studying for my paper.

Then again, when it concern you and your friend's happiness, don't come and tell me. its really okay if you wanna share the joy. For once, for twice fine. but not ever single decision that you made.

i am seriously irritated.

2009-08-09T03:48:00.006+08:00

MARINA BARRAGE, again (:
This time round, with sandwiches, potato salad, drinks and BITCHES!

Let's kick start the photo session with the first bitch...

Aunty Grace.

Anyway, we got to thank her for the food!
and wenwen for bring melted cheese with biscuits! the combination is superb!

delicious food... and we are all sitting on a "diaper-like" thing that is taken from the hospital...
if you can find it familiar... (:

After awhile, sprinkler started watering the grass that get everyone running, as if their houses are on fire. Bimbos screaming everywhere.

They go, "我的 Handphone 和 camera 湿了!!!"

Its seriously a joke for me.

I laughed like a mad woman!

I think having a tanned leg is totally suitable for me...
I should never be fair ever again...!

Spot who has the hairy-est leg...

Next UP!!!

Kite flying next weekend. and yes, i am totally looking forward to it (:

2009-08-06T04:16:00.007+08:00

Maths is taking up all my brain juice and leaving none for economics.

I have yet to even start revision for economics not because i have confident in it but maths is still in a total mess. I realise i totally forget about the past topics for maths and i need a lot of time just to recall how to do them. i cannot imagine if this happens when i am in the exam hall. ):

they are merely bridging courses and i feel that i am struggling for it... i am really starting to doubt my ability for my actual units.

is it because it has been awhile since i mug for exams or is it me that is weak in these modules? and now, bigger headache. i actually opted for managerial maths. i think i can just go die with managerial maths. [many many ): !!!]

studies and personal issue are really taking a toll on me. i keep having sleepless nights. i really need to drain all my energy before i can get to sleep. there's no way i can rest when my mind has the energy to think.

i cannot even concentrate to make myself to sleep because anything comes into my mind and that's it, they conquer my mind. then i will think about it and really gets very bothered by it.

so amaze by the fact that i actually go to the extend to think about things that happened a year ago; the break up with dardar. its actually A BLOODLY year ago. time really just passed before you even realise. my stamina is really not good enough to catch up with TIME.

now that exam is just next week, my mind is full of figures and graphs.

i am thinking about using aroma therapy. i really wonder if it really works. maybe i should just buy some and use some during those sleepless nights...

and and! staying up till wee hours is horrible. because i gets really hungry at this timing. but there's no way i will eat because eating before you sleep is a SIN for me. but then again, how can you rest well with an empty stomach?

(:

just a piece of good news out of so many bad ones, my new LG TV is coming tomorrow. okay, i am repeating myself.

as much as i still wanna study and practice my maths, my eyes are telling me that they are giving up. so i am heading to bed, with my newly bought ikea bedsheet.

xoxo, and good night DARDAR and the world.

P/S: "Knowing" is a show i wanna watch with dardar with the arrival of my new tv. i still don't understand why i missed that show when it is up in the theater. (anyway, i managed to download it for free and the ending sucks... so cheers to that!)

2009-08-04T23:55:00.002+08:00

Sister and my curtains are finally up after a long wait!!!

The green coloured one is my sister's curtain!
We got the same design but different colour! (:

My room is in a total mess because i am too excited about the arrival of my new curtain and didnt bother if my room is messy or not! heeee...

YEP! pretty pretty room.
I changed my bedsheet into a new one and now my room is totally NEW!

My new LG LCD television will arrive on thursday then my room will be PERFECT!
i am just so excited........

HOOOO.

nights people! having a 8.30am class tomorrow after so long... i hope the morning jam won't kill me tomorrow!

2009-08-02T02:48:00.002+08:00

God damn it.

I feel so guilty for venting my anger over at my BFFs when you can clearly see in my tag board, that....

THEY ARE SO FUCKING SWEET.

i am such a bad friend. ):
i promise to treat them better, and trying not to vent my anger on them anymore...

wenwen and grace, i promise k :D
MUACKS.

and to my dearest sister, i know you will always be there. and please, come together with me to collect the curtains on monday.

I am thinking how to celebrate my 21st birthday...
Any suggestion?

I wanted to book Somerset Liang Court but wa RAOS, minimum 7 nights to be eligible.
nehnehpok.
I really want a very unique and memorable way of celebrating my 21st birthday instead of just plainly opening a chalet at downtown east. that will, however, be my last option if there are no other available choice...

lastly,

I LOVE YOU, GRACE AND WENWEN!!!!!!

2009-07-31T16:57:00.002+08:00

i love to think about if i do really have friends that truly understand me.

Sometimes i will wonder, am i a good friends to others?
and i think i am really not a good friend. ):

so many things that i wanted to voice out. but i can't, because i don't wanna lose them as a friend. the feeling is so damn horrible. i just hope that there are someone out that, that are willing to let me pour out all my sorrows.

i will go crazy someday, if this thing continues.

shijie, just let it be.....

just let it be.......

please just let them be......

2009-07-26T00:27:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, i really dont understand.

Why is she such a insensitive girlfriend.
I don't understand what kind of language i have to communicate with her to make her understand what i want.

I admit i do expect a lot from her, i want her to be my best partner, but why after being together for so long, she still don't understand what i want when i am angry?

I go till the extend to ask her to go and die and she still got the cheek to just SMS me.

i can just vomit blood and die. really.

2009-07-23T18:14:00.005+08:00

Someone sent me this E-mail that made me feel a little entertained.
Knowing that wenzi is having night shift today, i guess i should type them out so that it can at least keep her entertained for 5 minutes (:

1) A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower, when the doorbell rings. The wife quickly wraps herself in a towel and runs downstairs. When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next-door neighbor.

Before she says a word, Bob says, "I''ll give you $800 to drop that towel."

After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob, after a few seconds, Bob hands her $800 and leaves.

The woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs.

When she gets to the bathroom, her husband asks, "Who was that?"
"It was Bob the next door neighbour," she replies.

"Great," the husband says, "did he say anything about the $800 he owes me?"

Moral of the story: If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk with your shareholder in time, you may be in a position to prevent avoidable exposure.

2) A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp.

They rub it and a Genie comes out.

The Genie says, "I''ll give each of you just one wish."

"Me first! Me first!" says the admin clerk. "I want to be in the Bahamas, driving a speedboat, without a care in the world." PUFF! She's gone.

"Me next! Me next!" says the sales rep. "I want to be in Hawaii, relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life." PUFF! He's gone.

"OK, you're up," the Genie says to the manager..

The manager says, "I want those two back in the office after lunch!"

Moral of the story: Always let your boss has the say first...

3) An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing.
A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, "Can I also sit like you and do nothing?"

The eagle answered: "Sure, why not?"

So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

4) A turkey was chatting with a bull.

"I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree" sighed the turkey, "but I havent got the energy."

"Well, why dont you nibble on some of my droppings?" replied the bull. "They are packed with nutrients."

The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree.

The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch.

Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree.

He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

Moral of the story: Bull shit might get you to the top, but it wont keep you there....

5) A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold that the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field.

While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out!!!

He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.

A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate.

Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Moral of the story:

(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) and when you are in deep shit, its best to keep your mouth shut.

(:

THAT's all folk!

2009-07-23T01:29:00.003+08:00

I only got 3 minutes to blog, because my show is starting real SOON!

baobei just vomited her undigested dog food and some rambutan fruits that i fed her. and she picks those undigested rambutans and ate them back.
(totally disgusted, but she's still so cute.)

i am still having slight headache but i still smoking non-stop because no one is in the living room except me!

I am having craving for mcdonald's ice latte but i am so lazy to go out to buy it. so i had some orange juice instead that i randomly found in my fridge.

i miss dardar mel so much so much. she's totally exhausted from ytd MJ session. because she barely had an hour of rest before she goes to work. i reckoned that she had long already concussed on her so-uncomfy-metal-bed in her bunk.

and i really hopes she books out like soon. i miss her. den i realised that it has been a while since i go on a solo date with her. two fabulous movie coming up, and i am going to catch at least one of them just with her.

Exams coming very soon, bridging course ending real soon.
Maths and econs are not sorted out YET.
i just dont wish to flunk them. GOD BREAST ME.

BYEs, for my tv shows! :D:D

2009-07-20T00:05:00.002+08:00

I am down with cough, fever and slight flu ):
Totally hate it since the last time that i got fever was when i was 16.
Anyway, they are getting better already, after some medication.

Well, my purpose now is to whine.
Just let me whine.

I hate it when people starts to act childishly. Maybe they are not till that stage of being matured, but at the minimum, i just hope that they take in advices.
When people give you positive advices, please follow it and don't claim that you hate it because people are nagging at you.
Best of all, you hate the person.

When people around you DONT fucking care about you, you say that no one understands you. no one there for you. no one you can turn to and all the things about you can only rely on yourself and no other people.

You ask yourself, people around you show concern by telling you what's wrong and what's right. you tell them off by hating them because THEY NAG at you.
Seriously, WHAT THE FUCK?

When things are in front of you, you don't cherish. When they are gone, you complain to the whole world about how pathetic you are. How irony.
Okay, maybe i shouldn't be that harsh on this point because i myself gone through this stage.

Now i realise that somethings in life are very important. think twice before you make any decision.

Whatever it is, life is yours. Do what you wish. Just do regret in the near future, because i can foresee that when you grow older, you will regret and realise that whatever we do for you is for your good.

people, don't start to get paranoid and wonder who i am referring to.
I decide for quite some time before i post this entry.

Blame me for having fever, that i am rather hot tempered today.

bye.

2009-07-17T04:02:00.003+08:00

There are so many things that are waiting to be accomplished...

Curtains to be up.
Overseas getaway (to THAILAND!)
Suntanning (an even tan for my tattoo..)
Changing bedsheet.
Science Center
Getting a new desktop
STUDYING!

My curtains are totally crap.
Thanks to that M**** Bitch in Ikea. Really man, ~~thankyouverymuch~~!

I waited for 2 weeks, and its total disappointment when i tried to hang it up.
Got to make another trip to ikea, and i hate those kind of disappointments.
Say i am a perfectionist or what, but it is just unacceptable.

I paid money for craps. FUCKs.

No more disappointment, I HOPE!

good night peeps.

xoxo.

2009-07-16T03:09:00.002+08:00

The magical power of a tender peck on the forehead, a warm hug and a sincere apology can do wonders. Never ever belittle these little efforts.

You just have to put down your ego for a minute, and you gained a heart warming feeling for the rest of the day. It definitely worth the exchange (:

I love you, sister.

2009-07-14T23:45:00.004+08:00

WE did say that its okay if we don't go.

Its not like we never and we pretend nothing is going on.
You assumed that we'll be unhappy but in fact, we are really fine not going today.
afterall, nothing was accomplished at all.

if i remembered clearly, its definitely not the first time that i cried over this "biased" issue. i don't see why because you are unhappy, he got to (be it pretending or REALLY BIASED) so that he can please you.

by doing that, it hurts me way more than anything.

YES, i don't deny at all that he does dote on me, he does provide me the best. he did that to you too. Don't he? So don't make it sound like i have the world and you had nothing.

Please do ask yourself this question. You really think he never dote you MORE than me? The "biased" issue never once happen between both of us? Please really think through it before you say he really treat us equally.

You can call me being jealous, being petty so that i don't even wanna speak to you.
I wouldnt deny i am jealous, but he really hurts me by pulling me down just to please you when i aint the one making you upset.

If you are finding an apology within this entry, here it is.

(These sorry is sincerely for you. Not at all any means of "suaning", if that ever come into your mind. Afterall we are sisters, i know its really a minor issue. We are grown ups. We should be able to take all these blows.)

I am sorry for initiating to go to buy some not urgent things despite your hectic schedule.
I am sorry for making you angry.
I am sorry for hurting you.
I am sorry for not understanding you at all despite me being through that phrase of life.
I am sorry for ignoring you.

But at the end of it, i still cannot take it.
Why must i be punished for things that i never did wrong, by the father that i love most?

Just give us a little time. We know we'll work this through, TOGETHER, as sisters.
I know we will, you know we will too. (:

Cheers to the sisterhood.

2009-07-10T16:26:00.001+08:00

I finally understand what is the most painful thing..

its definitely not tattooing, its not piercing your ear, its not breaking your limbs, but its breaking your heart.

Because when my heart aches, that's the only thing that will agitate my tears and make them flow like free.

Anyway, they are free. So why not fully make use of it?

Bye.

2009-07-09T20:14:00.002+08:00

I came across a blog, which totally pissed me off as i am a lesbian myself and i am extremely a proud lesbian. that's for sure, no denial.

If by asking the society to accept a such a practice to totally ridiculous and outrageous, then by asking the society to accept BGR is exactly ridiculous and outrageous, too.

Why being a homosexual cannot be accept? THEN WHY being in a so-called boy/girl relationship can be accepted?

You classified yourself as being in a relationship with a guy is because you and him have that common chemistry. Merely being he likes you, and you like him. Both held hands, both kissed, both hugged, both do things together and whatever you will name when you are in a relationship.

Just that being as a lesbian, my him ain't a him, but a her.

God don't made humans to be homosexual merely because they can't give birth to baby. and i guess, that's the ONLY different between a BGR and a lesbian.

You enjoy your company with your boyfriend and I enjoy my company with my girlfriend. We both gave up the thought of having babies. That's totally equal to BGR couples who don't want a baby.

I am just being unhappy over that fact that a GIRL who is not a lesbian comment about homosexual. When you don't understand homosexuality, don't go and comment on it. its totally not being fair to us when your opinion are totally biased.

*back to study. (:

2009-07-09T16:05:00.003+08:00

LV NEVERFULL BAG!!!!

The dream bag that i always wanted.

I promise myself that i am so gonna get a LV bag when i get my first pay.
It will be another 2 years.

But never mind, good things are worth waiting. (:
Favourite things that are bought with your own hard work is especially precious...

and i am saving up for it, i want it (:

YOU WILL BE MINE ONE DAY~~~ :D

2009-07-07T18:48:00.001+08:00

Living on different island on Singapore as your friends is so damn not cool!

I just don't like it.

Why don't we just all stay at a walkable distant?

DAMN IT!

2009-07-07T02:56:00.003+08:00

As mentioned yesterday...
If i manage to dig out my long lost courage, i will put a tattoo...

Apparently, i managed to find it (:
So, i went to a tattoo shop and i spent 300bucks.
Thank you.

I am totally broke now.
Lucky dardar is getting her pay this friday.
I am so living on her right now! (:

anyway.... just to say...

WHOEVER THAT SAYS TATTOOing IS NOT PAINFUL,

ITS TOTALLY CRAP!

it's fucking cb painful. ):

But anyway, its done already!

I told dardar that i gave wenzi this face throughout the whole session.
its so painful that my sweat can fill up a swimming pool.

A tattoo after a few hours... When the swollen gets better (:

That's all forks.

I am off to bed. BYES.

2009-07-06T00:15:00.001+08:00

If i can ever dig out my courage that is hidden very well within me tomorrow afternoon...

A tribal tattoo will be up on my lower back (:

2009-07-05T15:12:00.002+08:00

Mommy just revealed a news to me...

Daddy's getting a Honda Civic for me!!!
Well, but the person did not want to let go the civic at daddy's wanted price...

Maybe i'll get it someday... Maybe not...
let's just pray hard for the best! (:(:

Some times ago, i went for a 环岛追追追 tour with wenwen, fish, wowo, dardar and me.
Thanks wowo for driving us around.

She first picked me up at yishun then to boon lay to pick wenwen and fish up.

Then, our first destination at...

CHANGI VILLAGE for supper!

Fish wore a totally same coloured shirt as the people working there.
He was then being teased as the man boss there! :D:D:D
SEE, i wasn't lying that they wore the exact same colour!

Then, after a sumptuous supper, we head to our second destination to get Mocha, because wowo wanna get high... =.=

CHANGI AIRPORT!!!

Very sian of changi airport.
its time we change our location!!!

MARINA BARRAGE!

I totally agree that Marina Barrage is a perfect place for photo taking session.
It would be so great, if we were there in the afternoon.
I reckoned that photos will be of best quality if we were there in the noon!

I'm sure i am so going to Marina Barrage some day in the noon!
I LOVE GREEN GREEN GRASS! :D:D

Last destination...

HENDERSON WAVE!!!

By the time we hit Henderson Wave, we are all shagged out.
I was totally not in the mood for photo taking any more.
Just some photos here and there to prove that we WERE there. (:

THE END of our very fruitful trip!
Cheers to that!

This kind of trip is so gonna happen again, i swear! (:

Two more pile of photos (Mummy and mine birthdays as well as ECP with Dan, shawn and DOGS!!!)

Stay tune. (:

2009-07-05T01:17:00.002+08:00

i just realised that its extremely exhausting bringing three little babies out to East Coast Park for a stroll. (my baby Baobei, Dardar's baby Angel and Dan's baby Pepper)

just for a short while, i feel so tired. I guess i can finally have a good night sleep today.

Recently, i have been really busy. Busy schooling, enjoying life and facebooking that i don't have time for any other things.
I now have 2 piles of photos waiting to be treated, and i really don't know when i will have the spare time for them. ):

BUSY. it really has been a while since i felt this way.
Well, though i am real busy, i still manage to get sufficient sleep everyday.
Cheers to that! (:

Anyway, i realise i woke up on the wrong side of bed this morning. Practically everyone, well not practically, but EVERYONE who spoke to me this morning got scolded by me. Even baobei. I flared at the slightest things that happened (which i usually won't) and scold the shit outta everyone.

Here's my apology (:

P/S: Sometimes its very saddening (if there's such word) that your effort is totally not being appreciated by people and that you are being taken for granted.
i have been putting in my best, but sometimes, i will be totally held back but what some people says. i need the motivation, and i am still searching for it. i'll be fine, after a hard work out tomorrow after lesson (:

2009-06-29T00:45:00.004+08:00

Something just really irritates the shit outta me.
and for today, i flared over something i accumulated for quite awhile.

and seriously, by saying "I don't know how" is the definitely not an excuse for you not to do anything.

before you even try to do something and you say you can't do it, trust me that you'll forever not know how to do it. there's things that i don't know too, you may get it wrong but that's alright, learn from your mistakes and do it again. you will do it way better the second time.

i am sorry if my words are harsh, but sometimes i hope you do something about it. especially when i am already there, trying to get things done and you are totally not co-operative. at the end of the day, nothing is done.

totally wasting my time.

*breathing hard*

i got my measuring tape from Giant and i got many, many cheap stationary from there! i am going to measure my window by tonight and get my ikea curtains done by this week! when i say it, i do it (:

hee...

birthday celebration was great, i totally enjoy the companion of all. my sister, my friends. Dan commented that going out with my sister is fun. i guess my sister just crap and bullshit a lot thus making something monotonous exciting. i tried that, and i totally agree that my sister has that ability.

stomach has been failing on me for the past few days.
and i totally have no idea what's going on with my stomach :c

well, hopefully tomorrow will be better (:

2009-06-27T16:01:00.002+08:00

Shaggy,

A lovely dog. He's just like baobei, a cross shih tzu and maltese breed.
Very handsome and charming dog, just that he barks frequently.

One day, we decide to send him to SPCA because of some personal reason.
We thought by sending him to SPCA, he could meet someone else who loves him more than us.
Someone else who is more capable of taking care of him.

On 26 June, 3.30pm. He went into my car, thinking that we were bringing him out for a stroll.
but the fatal fact that he's not going to come home ever again.

When we reached SPCA, our hearts were all very heavy.
Although i am not like very close to shaggy, but somehow, the scene of Shaggy leaving us is very heart wrenching.
He alighted from my car, walking in such a way that he is prolly going somewhere fun to play.
He NEVER knew. he never knew that if he's not adopted within 24 hours, he's not going come out from there ever again.

What that hits me straight is not the fact that he got to be put to sleep if he is not adopted within 24 hours, but the fact that he is walking into SPCA happily.
If he was to know what is all happening around him, will shaggy still look so delighted?
i don't know.

I cried, we all cried.

The guilt built within us is so much so much.
There's practically nothing we can do to reduce it.
Even if we said a million times of sorry to Shaggy, he won't understand and it will never remedy the situation.

I announced the news to the whole world. The whole world felt sad for Shaggy.
Especially my dearest Wenwen and Grace.
Wenwen got me a guy from dunno where, saying he wanted to adopt Shaggy.

27June, we bring shaggy back from SPCA.
His appearance looks like he was very badly bullied inside SPCA and that he was so traumatized by it.
I no longer see his eager and happy look.
We brought him to his new owner.

His new owner don't own a dog, Shaggy will be his one and only dog.
I really pray hard that this is the final time shaggy is going to leave his owner.
He deserve better. really.

I finally realise how lucky baobei is.
she ought to cherish and treasure it.

I love you baobei!

2009-06-25T16:32:00.003+08:00

As mentioned, Grace's 24th birthday yesterday.

While waiting for their arrival, dardar and i had burger king as dinner.

After that, they had dinner at XinWang cafe before we head for movie.

caught transformer, the revenge of the fallen.
it was pretty okay, but i think it can be better.

many birthday(s) coming up, and i know i will have tons of photos to upload!
(:
extremely delighted when there's such events coming up because i know i will enjoy myself to the fullest.

2009-06-25T04:08:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST GRACE! (:

Pictures will only be up tomorrow.

Maths class is killing my brain cells (mind you, its only secondary school standard!)
I am only at the fundamental but it seems like i am somewhat drowning.
Thanks to not taking A-maths in secondary school.
Everything (except algebra) seems like alien to me.
I gotta work extra hard, to be able to catch up, since its only the fundamental.

Xiangting is nice enough to lend a helping hand. She told me these are easy!
I am stronger in Econs, so i gotta help her in that (:
Way to GO babe!

have no school tomorrow, so i am really gonna pack my room and start revising my maths.
if i don't get my fundamental right, i think i will be lost for the rest of the lesson.
):

Shijie, you got to do it the hard way... like how you did for scoring business statistics.
the thing is, i remembered how hard i worked for stats and history is repeating itself!

Cheers to that....

nights(:

2009-06-24T18:09:00.002+08:00

Human nature is really too scary for me to comprehen.

Jealousy, domination, gossips, backstabbing...

You think you understand, but you don't.

not at all.

its time for withdrawal, before its too late to do it.

bye, i am going to school.

2009-06-23T03:01:00.003+08:00

School's starting tomorrow.
I am going to be super busy the moment i wake up.

Clean my freaking room.
Buy ink and stationary.
Fork out spaces for the files on top of my printer.
Print my notes.
Prepare for school.
If i have just that extra time, i would go for a shop at bugis before heading to school.

Holiday period is all over.
School's starting, exams coming, studying needed and no more partying.

i will miss those days...
i really will.

nights, world.

2009-06-21T01:47:00.005+08:00

Uploaded some of baobei's very cute pictures.
Sad to say, she's botak now...
Nonetheless, she will still look as cute as in pictures when her furs grows~~~
(:

Cheers to that.

P/S: I cleaned both my tables, just that i didn't manage to clean the dirty floor.

P/S,P/S: Awaiting for an awesome dinner tomorrow, follow by a MJ session with the fellow cliques... (:

*i removed some text as i am worried that people MAY get offended IF they just so happen to know my blog. (PEACE!)

2009-06-20T06:35:00.002+08:00

The first thing that i am so gonna do tomorrow when i wake up is to...

PACK MY FARKING ROOM!

its in total mess now and everything is so not in order.

the floor is freaking messy and i couldn't stand it.

i am going to sweep my floor, mop my floor, rearrange both my tables and make out space on my table so that i can study properly when school starts!

i will do all these things first before i head out tomorrow.

i promise =x

xoxo(:

2009-06-17T04:53:00.000+08:00

"you fuckin' cheebye..."

said by me, to the itouch because i lost a monopoly game due to total UNFAIRNESS.

):

2009-06-16T06:24:00.003+08:00

its time to bring middle khong to ladies night someday.

this coming wednesday is definitely a good day.

=X

off to bed. i am dead tired after an awesome ~~WOOHOO~~ morning with my love.

tata.

2009-06-15T03:07:00.003+08:00

Pictures for shopping with beloved sister! (:

Went to marina square.
Wasn't a very good shop, cause i didnt manage to buy everything that is on my shopping list.

After shopping, we feel that its early to go home, but late enough that all the shops are closing in no time. Thus, we headed to Yishun Safra party world for a sing-aloud-session!

after seeing those photos, i have a thought of cutting bangs.

but i guess i will just drop that idea. (:

xoxo.

2009-06-14T04:44:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, its so intimidating that your mind contradicts each other at a speed before you can even realize.

At one time, i can feel that she's so not worth to be my friend and i dislike her.
But at another time, i feel that she's such a nice friend and i should really cherish her cause i may not be able to find such a friend anymore.

I see friends come and go from my life.
I see how friends become foe.
I see how powerful miscommunication can be.
I see how revengeful human nature can be.

If you are not good, you don't want your foe to be as well.
that's selfish.

Anyway, being a honest me, i take revenge. I seize chance to make people detest you if i myself detest you.
I gossip.
I backstab OR I don't backstab (depending what's your definition for backstabbing.)

I can be really nice likewise I can be really mean.
At times, I myself get all confused.

I should learn to be contented with what i have now.

I remembered when i was younger, when i don't score well in examinations, i compare myself with the weaker ones, so that it seems that i am doing fine afterall.

But when handling your life, why can't we compare ourselves with people whom are less fortunate than us? Why must we compare ourselves with people who do better than us?

Let alone monetary wise cause you may say its a type of motivation.
Fair enough.

Let's say things that you cannot control.
For example, the family that you live in.
Where you are not as rich as others, where you don't as much pocket money as your friends. You start to curse and swear. Start to blame your parents, you start to wonder why.
But why not we compare with people who get lesser than us?

%$@%$@$^$^!!!!!

Whatever it is, its easier said than done.

Enough of ranting.

Goodbye.

P/S: I AM FREAKING HUNGRY NOW!!!

2009-06-13T03:23:00.001+08:00

Dardar,

I WANT TO SEE YOU NOW!!!

):):):

2009-06-12T16:16:00.005+08:00

I am so going for shopping today!
Credits goes to the AWESOME father khong (:

Both sister and i each have 300bucks budget for today!
I can shop for dresses, tops, blouses and many many things with that 300bucks!
WOOHOO!

I am so prepared for it...

I need to get...

Blinkblink crystals (i wanna decorate my mirror)
Pink fluffy, furry thingy (for my mirror as well)
Retro, Pink/Red polka dots hairband
TOPS!
DRESSES!
and beautiful things i see along my way!

*or should i use it to buy my Polaroid camera?

AWESOME!

(:

and, i have been pestering both sister and brother to get me a birthday present! and sister khong says she has no budget, as long as i like that thing! (:(:(:

triple smile to that!

I LOVE ALL OF THEM!!!!

2009-06-12T01:08:00.007+08:00

Last Saturday, went Strand Hotel with my loves.
Because they claimed that 100bucks for a night is pretty worth it, so all of us shared the cost to go crazy for a night.

Overall, the hotel is rather big and it only cost a 100bucks, given the fact that its located in town. If i were to hold a small gathering, i wouldn't mind going to the hotel again.

I LOVE the bath tub. I had an awesome bubble bath!!!

Some pictures to share...

These following three pictures must emphasize...
All the candid shots of our gorgeous Queen aka Grace..

She simply loves to do funny candid pose when i click on the shutter.
=.=

Anyway, i am actually very glad that my dardar can click with my friends.
Now we can always hang out together and i love all their companion!
(:

Yesterday, we all gathered at Dardar's place for a crab and prawns feast! definitely not leaving out wenwen's "ru rou". It all adds up to a word, DELICIOUS! (:
Pictures will only be up after i receive them!

*back to my Zoo and Restaurant City*

2009-06-10T01:39:00.002+08:00

I am wondering how i should celebrate my 20th birthday...

a small but yet memorable birthday...

sounds easy but yet so troublesome...

17 more days and counting...

(:(:(:

Yesterday, i bring angel to my house, to be my baobei's playmate.
They are always fighting, but they are simply too cute to resist.

Please do not laugh at my baobei's hair. She's definitely VERY, EXTREMELY cute. Trust me (:
I will definitely snap super lots of pictures of her when her fur grows and i will make sure you all love her as much as i do!!!

Ain't them just so LOVELY?

i feel bless to have baobei and dardar feel bless to have angel. (:
we are both bless with obedient dog.

我相信，龚宝贝是命中注定要做龚家的小狗狗。
她一定是一只很幸福，很幸福的狗。
我很爱她，同时，我也知道她很爱我！

宝贝，i love you. (:

2009-06-08T20:02:00.003+08:00

My bad badtz maru's collection! (:

I am so bored!

I desperately wanna go bangkok for a short trip.
Heard that it is a shopping paradise and i am wondering if its really true.

Brought Angel to my house to be my Baobei's playmate.
Took some pictures of them.
Shall upload when i got the time to sort them out.

Birthday is coming in a few weeks time.
Not very excited though, but the thought of celebrating it with my best friends is what that make birthday celebrations meaningful. Definitely not leaving out celebration with family as well. (:

Steamboat later with my fellow friends (:
Happyhappy.

xoxo.

2009-06-08T00:50:00.005+08:00

Finally have the time to sit down and blog.
Fished out way overdue photos with my fellow Vietnam-trip-friends.
I guess, its the so-called farewell party for my dearest Leslie Tey.

He's the best tutor that i have ever met in Ngee Ann.
Though he never teaches me before in Ngee Ann, but going with him to Vietnam is more than enough for me to judge that he's an awesome tutor.

Going Vietnam with him is really an eye opener. If the teacher-in-charge is not him, i guess Vietnam trip wouldn't be that fun, that memorable any more...

Thank you Mr Leslie Tey for giving me such a great trip.

School is going to start real soon.
Going out almost everyday, spending lots of money.
Serene is not going to SIM with me, i am actually super disappointment by the fact, but i still gotta face it myself.
heading down to SIM personally tomorrow to settle my application form. hopefully i will settle it tomorrow... its really a hassle to do all the paperwork and if i were to do it myself, i will definitely miss out things that i am suppose to do. (:

Dardar is here, and i am going to sleep.

tata. and xoxos.. :D

2009-06-01T05:39:00.001+08:00

i am melted yet again by Fated to Love. (:

2009-06-01T03:25:00.002+08:00

i came across this book by Burke Hedges.

some phrases that i like it so much that i want to quote in my blog so that i can browse it again next time.

1) The Same Doors Lead to the Same Result.
"if you continue to do what you've always done, you'll continue to get what you've always gotten."

isn't it so true? in order to change your life from what you are having right now, you ought to change what you are doing. remaining as what it is now is aint going to bring you to somewhere new.

2) World of Copycats.
we are all copycats.

we copy the language we speak, we copy the system of writing from the left side of the page to the write. you can't deny the fact that everyone on earth is the BEST copycat-er. whatever that we are doing now is copycat-ing others.

Others start blogging. we copy it.
Others dyed their hair. we copy it.
Others sprayed perfume. we copy it.
Others paint nail polish. we copy it.
Others started wearing tights. we copy it.

3) Wealth = Freedom
Freedom from debt
Freedom from a boss
Freedom from stress
Freedom from office politics. (:

i haven finish reading the book.
but i already find the book super interesting.
i can't wait for dardar to finish it as quickly as possible so that i can start reading it and gain the knowledge that is written in it. :D

well, good night peeps.

xoxo.

2009-05-30T03:43:00.004+08:00

life with this extraordinary daddy and the sweetest dog that anyone could ever have is so perfect.

i simply cannot imagine if i never have them in my life (:

mj-ed with the usual kids and celebrated shawn's sister birthday together with their family.
had a sumptuous sponsored dinner by the kind sister of shawn and had a awesome ktv session with the whole family.

it brings me to consider bringing my whole family for a ktv session soon but well, fully subsidized by my wonderful dad.

there's always a price to pay for the awesome daughters and son to name him WONDERFUL. (:
anyway, more pictures will be fully uploaded when i really have the time to sit down and compile my pictures.

I am so busy going out, totally enjoying my holiday before my university life starts!

and yea, as expected, i was accepted into SIM. better than nothing (:

and tata peeps.

xoxos.

2009-05-28T15:48:00.003+08:00

Well, almost done with my new blogskin.
I've decided to change back to blogger because i still feel more comfortable with it. (:
I still love the concept of it over livejournal.

No lock up post because its my blog, i say whatever i say.
(:

Shall go and prepare myself for the double date.
Dan's gonna kill me if i am still not ready when she calls. :D:D

2009-05-28T15:48:00.000+08:00

Man U ROCKS!!!!!

BARCELONA SUCKS!!!!

even though you won. =.=

2009-04-08T03:29:00.002+08:00

It has been hell long since i touch my blogger site.

I read through those entries during the breakups.
Suddenly, i felt heart broken.
I hate reading those things, because it actually brought up all the unwanted memories.
I know people will not visit my blogger site any more and suddenly, i feel very relax and stressless to blog here. (:

Maybe i should secretly use this site again. :D
but before i will use this site again, i will delete ALL the unwanted memories. Or i will force dardar to read it first. make her understand what kind of life i am going through when she is enjoying with peggy. (:

Then maybe should will treat me even better.

Well, not that she hasnt been treating me good, she has been treating me 10 times better than how i treat her. I have been having irregular mood swings lately that makes her go insane. She has to be prepared for my mood swings, handle it and she has to handle it well.

I asked her recently, do you think i am a very horrible girlfriend? she said no.
I asked her, do you think i am very stubborn? she said yes.
I asked her, do you think i am very demanding? she said a little.
I asked her, do you think i am very hot tempered? she said yes.

Then she adds on, she said, you are hot tempered, but you will be okay in a while. your hot tempered doesnt goes on very long. (which goes to show that i am a very quick tempered person). Very true indeed.

I love her very much. But sometimes i realise i dunno how to express myself.
I am aint a romantic person. or putting it in this way, i hate mushy mushy things.
haha, and that's me.

on another hand, dardar loves that.
Sometimes, she do expects such things from me. but i really don't like it. thus, i would flare at her. i feel so guilty. but hai ya....

okay... enough of my rantings.. i am sleepy, i shall turn in. good night.

2008-12-12T00:06:00.000+08:00

MOVED.

http://red-vicious.livejournal.com

2008-12-11T09:39:00.002+08:00

I am exhausted for i only slept 4 hours and i dragged myself to work. I wish so much so much to sleep more! ):

Seeing her makes me miss her even more, heartache even more, and hahahahaha even more. as much as i wanted to make myself happy to prove to her that i don't need her, i still **** her quite a lot. wahahaha.

whatever it is, the only love that i am missing now is, my Baobei.Khong (:

2008-12-09T14:01:00.002+08:00

I have VERY VERY serious mood swing problem!!!!

GYM GYM GYM GYM GYM GYM...

SHED MY FATS AWAY... SHED MY FATS AWAY... SHED MY FATS AWAY...

SLIM DOWN SLIM DOWN SLIM DOWN SLIM DOWN...

CURE PIMPLES CURE PIMPLES CURE PIMPLES CURE PIMPLE...

PRETTY.. PRETTY.. PRETTY.. PRETTY.. PRETTY..

HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY!

SCREAMMMM! SCREAMMMM! SCREAMMM!! SCREAMMM!!!!!!

LAUGHs... LAUGHs... LAUGHs... LAUGHss.....

SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE SMILE...

INLINE SKATE INLINE SKATE INLINE SKATE INLINE SKATE!!!

LET HER REGRET LET HER REGRET LET HER REGRET!!!

MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST!

so now, you ought to believe i got serious mood swing problem. aint you?

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..

Signing off,

SWEETEST ShiJIE (:

2008-12-09T09:29:00.002+08:00

The superwoman is finally sick.

I am down with flu and cough... Since Saturday.

It became worse today when i cannot even taste my ciggy.. ):

Menstrual + Being Sick = Terrible / Horrible.

People say... When you lose something, they will compensate you with something better. I am just wondering when is mine. I know everything takes time. and i realised that being single isn't a really bad thing afterall...

But sometimes, somethings, friends are just aint enough to satisfy you. Just like at this very point of time. when i fall sick, there's aint someone there to prepare herbal tea for me. I can't help but to feel very, very lonely.

these days, i really cannot find my chubbly / bubbly character. i've lost the ability to laugh very loudly and suan all my friends. my laughing meter drop drastically. ): i am sorry. the feeling of i-don't-want-to-go-home is coming all over again.

i sleep so little and i feel so weak.

but... i still think that i should stay single for awhile before i am prepared for a terrible relationship all over again. i really don't think i can afford another breakup; but who dont know the fact that this is inevitable? ARGH!

i hate human nature.

hais.

perhaps, everything's just destinated.

2008-12-08T04:34:00.003+08:00

i really hate myself.

i hate myself for being so selfish (to myself).
i hate myself for the need to go through all those pains again.
i hate myself for forgiving her over and over again.
i hate myself for feeling hurt everyday.
i hate myself for not able to let her go.
i hate myself for missing her every now and then.
i hate myself for crying every single night and refuse to turn in.
i hate myself for lying to myself.
i hate myself for treating myself so badly.

dears, i am really really feeling very down.
dears, i really dont know how long more can i stand strong.
dears, i really dont wish to deceive anyone.
dears, i am crying myself to sleep every night.
dears, i hate the feeling of loneliness.
dears, i acted okay in front of all people.
dears, the truth that knowing the fatal facts is so hurting.
dears, the hurt is lingering around me every seconds.
dears, i really dont wish to cry.
dears, i really wanna let everything go.
dears, why must i still suffer it after so long.
dears, why must she still gives me hope and break it once again?
dears, why is this world so fucking unfair?
dears, i really wanna have a good night sleep.
dears, i really wanna really enjoy just 1 day without thinking about it.
dears, i really really need a break.
dears, my heart is being torn apart.
dears, its bleeding profusly.
dears, who can really understand how i felt exactly?
dears, who can touch and amend my heart now...
dears, can you tell me how long more i need to bear this?

i am soooo sorry. please dont ask me if i am fine being i am totally not.

the mixed feelings of hatred and love is killing me gradually.
i cant help but to feel so damn sad when i know they are back together happily. why after so long, i am still the one being hurt so badly?
why........................................

i dont want to pity myself... but friends, this is fucking terrible. i swear i dont want to try it another time. i am really feeling freaking terrible. someone, please freaking plaster my heart......! i cannot take it any more....

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2008-12-06T13:22:00.001+08:00

ShiJie

please stay strong......

2008-12-05T11:08:00.002+08:00

After a good night sleep yesterday, i realise that i've shed a thousand pounds of weight.
hurhurss..
i feel so relax, so light, so comfortable...

the worries for the relationship; i can finally let it go...
no more guessing of what's on her mind.
no more worrying of her future/our future.
no more financial planning for her and only her.
no more forcing her to do something she doesnt want.
no more sharing of girlfriend with that ocean.
no more a "unofficial" girlfriend.
no more shits from her.
no more sacrifies for her.
no more hiding of character just to please her.
no more acting good temper.
no more crying in the night.
no more feeling neglected.
no more feeling being betrayed.
no more getting annoyed over the trust-you-issue.

i will get over it. no matter how hard it takes. you are out of me, out of my life since yesterday and i promised myself, never ever let you come into my life again. (:

冯曦妤-不做你的情人
曲:陈光荣词:冯曦妤
编:陈光荣监制:陈光荣

对空气
不停念你的名字
会不会
让你我重来一次
我知道我不够好
你才离去
投进温柔的怀里

如果我
不顾一切迁就你
会不会
吸引你再爱一次
不明白为什么要
那样委屈
眼泪流得不停息

不做你的情人
不需要再担心
担心你会再离我而去

宁愿不做你的情人
收起我的天真
分你半个吻

如果我
不顾一切迁就你
会不会
吸引你再爱一次
不明白为什么要
那样委屈
眼泪流得不停息

不做你的情人
不需要再担心
担心你会再离我而去

宁愿不做你的情人
收起我的天真
分你半个吻...

2008-12-04T22:17:00.001+08:00

Something worth me smiling, at least for one second.......

Someone that will always be there for me, no matter rain or shine.
Love me for who i am no matter how attitude i am to her...
no matter how little time i can devote to her, she'll never leave me...

always smile to me, never fail to make me fall in love with her everyday...

hereby, i introduce, my lovely BAOBEI! (:

2008-12-04T21:08:00.001+08:00

somewhere, i found the courage to say things out...

somehow.... i find myself regretting...

den, i realise i started crying...

and, i really dont know what will happen next...

this ought to be over....

can someone out there bring me out of this shits???

2008-12-03T09:36:00.002+08:00

i am working now! (:

but anyway, i feel so sinful this morning because i cannot resist the temptation of the delicious chocolate. i am hungry and stress at the same time. thus, chocolate may be the best remedy to it!

let's me update myself of my recent doings and feelings... so bear in mind that this may be the boring-est type of blog entry.

Work.

still attending work regularly... and i have been through 13th weeks of work outta 23. which means, i am only left with 10 weeks of work. from counting down from months to now, counting down of weeks. Then, counting down to weekends and counting down to public holidays, counting down to getting pay. lotsa counting down so tat i am looking forward to everyday. i cant wait for it to end so that i can go for me Redang trip! (: i needa long vacation badly.

Yvonne had her last day of work on Friday, the 28th of November. pretty sad cuz i miss having long lunch break with her... whenever we have short lunch (e.g. having fish soup at newton), she will always accompany me to the MRT station to have a stick of ciggy. then we will start our gossiping session all over again! Remember there's once we were stucked there cuz its raining so heavily! i miss those sessions badly.

Friends.

I find myself so blessed. because i've friends whom are willing to lend a hand for me whenever i need them there. thank whoever that gave me Jacqueline Teo, Dan Teo, Grace Liau, Liwen.......... the first few that came into my mind. ((:

Relationship.

its not at all on track yet. i wouldnt say that she's mine. but, we will see how it goes on this weekend. i went into this relationship all over again. hopefully i wont get any more disappointments. (: i dont know why i heart her so much... but she just makes me get going whenever i see her. i hope she feels that way too.

now adays, whole family likes to stay inside my room because its super neat! (: daddy is glad and please with me having the determinations to clean it up. i guess, he must like dan and jacqueline too because they helped me in it. daddy saw it too! (: the next step to my room is to draw floral prints on my red wall. dardar promised to help out! YEA.

i need saga seeds... anyone has any idea where to pick saga seeds? i went to quite alot of places but i only manage to find a little of it. i assume its not the saga seeds season now... ): i need quite a lot of it... i think i gotta spend alot of effort to get the amount i want to get.

WELL... Breverly Hill Chiwawa tonight! yipieee..

teng teng teng teng teng teng... CHIWAWA.. teng teng teng teng teng teng... CHIWAWA~ (:

2008-12-01T00:44:00.002+08:00

JUST PLEASE LET ME RANT! i really want to say everything out (to her)..........

I LOVE YOU!!!!
but i really cannot even tell you so! just because i have no trust in you.
whenever you promised me like how you do, my heart will naturally melt and say yes.
i cannot bring myself to treat you very harshly even though i know i should.
however, at the end of the conversation, i'd still wish to tell you, please come back.

whenever i want to tell you i love you and i want you to come back so badly and says that please break with peggy cuz i want to have you from this minute, i will definitely be held back!
because i knew that you'll change your mind again! i ought to be mentally prepared that you will not want me because this is dunno for fucking sake how many times you have been doing it.
It much that it has been a habit!

even though you promise me, you swear, you kiss me, you hold my hand, you hug me, you look into my eyes and tell me how much you want to come back, at the end of the day, the person you are with is still that bitch! i dunno how many times i wanna try it.

I for god sake dunno how many times you've been doing it.

but why am i still having the little hope in my heart that you'll do it?

people around you dont trust your words any more... why m i still trusting it? still putting hope in it? HOW many times have i tell myself that even you knee down in front of me, i still shouldnt trust you because you seriously dont worth it any more? i hate myself.

i hate myself for being so weak. i hate it whenever you sweet talk with me. i should stop bringing my mobile phone out until you tell me you break with that bitch. till then, please can you stop contacting me so that even if you wanna change your mind, i wouldnt be so hurt by it?

i really hate myself for giving my friend promises that i want you back but yet i cant do it!

):

i got so much so much to say... i wanna scream in front of everyone.....

i cannot hold it any more........

ITS REALLY TO FUCKING STRESS FOR ME TO LIVE IN YOU, BUT NOT IN YOUR HEART!!!!!!

CCCCCCBBBBBBBBBB!!!!

2008-11-30T15:41:00.001+08:00

As promised, pictures of my room make over... (:

NICE??? (:

2008-11-30T04:45:00.002+08:00

I am exhausted already...

physically exhausted and mentally exhausted.

shall not mention about why am i mentally exhausted SINCE, i really dont want to hurt myself all over again. enough is enough, chances given, trust betrayed, empty promises, indecisiveness, YET AGAIN.

just 2 words,

FUCK OFF. (:

i will never let you enter my life ever again!

anyway, why am i physically exhausted.... I REVAMP MY ROOM!

i never just say okie, i did it!

Jacqueline and me went ikea to window shop for things to add into my room.
Jacqueline and Dan plan my room layout for me.
Myself, rearranged ALL the furniture in my room.
Dan, Jacqueline and me repaint my wall RED.
Dan, Jacqueline and me went Ikea again to get the things i want.
Dan, Jacqueline and me packed my room, wipe the dust, put my new curtain and build my drawer (:

exhausted. really.

shall post up pictures of my room soon!

i m waiting for tomorrow!!! i wanna take photos tomorrow!

2008-11-25T10:34:00.002+08:00

after a month of torturing, finally something sweet came to me.

i hope that she'd be serious this time round and no more empty promises to me.

though i hope that she can be my dardar all over again, but i just simply cant bring myself to trust her again. not able to trust that she will 100% be back with me. the level of trust is not even 50% if you believe me.

this may seems damn demoralizing and then you will start asking me,"so what's the point of going back to her when you know you cant trust her? the most important thing in a relationship is mutual trust. without it, the relationship cant go far."

melissa and me have come this far. though we sort of ended our 30months relationship back in 2008 august, but till now, we both now we still have each other inside us. now, its 34 months soon already.

she moved on with her current girlfriend and i moved on with my current crushed. i dont trust her that she really meant it when she said that she will leave her girlfriend and come back to me and she dont trust me that i can let the crush go.

no matter how hard i tried to instill the mentality that CRUSH is only a CRUSH. to that crush, its merely likings and liking wont stay long. i pick it up within 1 week and i can let it go within 1 week. but she doesnt seems to believe me. it is really a hinderance to a new beginning of our relationship.

but what's the biggest hinderance now is not my crush. its her current girlfriend. she's a nice girl i know. i know she's patient with melissa, she takes good care of melissa and her temper is definitely better then me. let's not even go into the superficial part. its rather sensitive.

but i hope she do understand that until date, melissa and me is soon to be 34 months and her? 3 months? the memories, the sweet little things and the feeling that melissa and me have together, i guess, she can never replace (for now luh).

melissa said that she'll prove to me that she wants me back.......

but who knows? because till now, i cant feel a single bit.

i read someone's blog. she kneel down to ask her exgf to be her gf again... and WOW, sweet. i never fail to get melted by her doings for her girlfriend despite her girlfriend's a flirt. now that her gf choose to go back to her, i do hope that things will really go well between them...

i love to have a new beginning with melissa, with all the redang/thailand/taiwan trip welly planned.. so be it the two of us, or with jacqueline and dan or some other couples within your group, we'll travel there and have a really good rest. i miss those time...

sometimes, i really dont know how to approach melissa... how to tell her how badly i want her to come back to me... how to describe to her how hurt i am when she leaves me for peggy. when she talked to me like she's a stranger...

i once said to everyone, I WILL NEVER WANT HER BACK. even if she was to say she wants me back...

but apparently, 1 month after all her harsh doings, i realise harsh and disappointing things she did have faded... to a point whereby, i can forgive her and accept her back wholeheartedly...

DARDAR: can u please understand that a crush can really never be able to replace you?

i dunno if melissa will be able to read this page or not. but i really do hope that i wont have to write such things in my blog again. i hope that the future post will all be the happy moments that we share together. (:

i wish.....